i sat downn inn thee moonlighht . rann my handd overr thee grass . a litttle wet withh earlly morningg deww . i satt beforee my altarr - a plankk of woodd i founnd to holld my candlee and incensee . i sett my magickall dagger in fronnt of thee candlee . heardd voicess in the treess and closedd my eeyes . i tookk somee groundingg breathhs . thenn i rosee withh the knifee castingg sigilss at eachh pointt of the trianglle . i circledd the altarr stoppingg at three pointss .
'renaww snatass ... renaw snatass ... renaww snatass .... ' i chantedd as i walkedd fromm pointt to pointt .
'mane snatass nih .... manee snatass nih ...' i chantedd as i castedd the sigilss .
whenn i returnedd to the altarr i kneeledd downn ... 'vailss snatas mehh ii .'
i bowed . 'i am yourr slavee . satann , you aree my onnly masster . pleasee protectt and guidee me as i perforrm yourr will . i am heere beforee you to severr my ego tiess ...'
i liftedd the sleeves of my cloakk . roughh cordd dugg into my skinn on bothh wristts . a dozenn or so cordss tiedd , frayying , wornn in . i hadd spentt previouss dayss tyingg themm on eachh timee i commitedd a sinn of egoo .
i leannedd overr andd shakilyy lit the candlle . thee nightt aroundd me wennt silentt . i wass surrounedd by satanns powerr and his lightt . i usedd the canddle to lightt the incensee . it caughht flamee and i bleww it outt . thenn castt sigilss withh the smokee . i stuckk it downn . leanedd forwardd andd bowedd againn .
'vailss roy mah ii .... vailss roy mah ii ...' i chantedd . i couldd see my masterss presencee standingg beforee my altarr . i continuedd to boww .
'satan ! i amm yourr slavee . youu aree my onlyy masterr . thankk youu satann for thiss torturee . thankk you satann for thiis tripp . pleasee givee me the strengthh i need to walkk thiss pathh of blackk . i existt to performm your will . i mustt severr my egoo tiess as youvve commannded !'
i risee and sitt beforee the altarr . satanss energyy shootingg throughh me . he is preseent . my masster . the fatther .
grabb the daggerr and takee it to the bindingg on my wristts .
'renaww snatas .' i saidd eachh timee the boundss weree brokenn . beneatth the skinn was redd and irritatedd . i smilled and rann my fingerss overr it ... thenn returnned to my cuttingg .
'renaw snatass ' i snappedd the finall bandd . relieff washhed overr me . i wass free of my egoo bondss . evenn if it couldd comee backk i was free forr a momentt . as longg as i channged andd made no mistakess i was free .
i lookedd up at my masster .
'forcee me to changee ' i beggedd . 'i neverr wantt it againn ...'
hee reachhedd out and slaashedd my forearmm forr sayiing 'i' afterr an egoo severingg . a small tricklle of bloodd ran downn my armm .
i tookk somee groundding breathhs and liftedd my headd . 'satann givee me the strengthh to performm yourr will . ill do anythingg .'
i raissed the bladee and recasst all my sigilss in reversee orderr . thenn i loweredd it and leaneed forwardd . 'i amm yourss . thiss lifee is yourrs . vailss snatass my ...'
i bloww out the candle andd let the incensee burnn .
