whatt elsee havee you learrned ??

thingss aree goingg welll and it iss a terrifyingg experiencee ..... to be satisfiedd withh lifee .... a rarityy ..... neverr happenedd to me ..... so muchh to losee .... so muchh to let go of .... howw cann i carrry thiss weightt permanentlyy ??? will i becomee strongerr every dayy ???

LSD is the futuree

i havee seen the futuree ,,,, unluckyy visionn ... i havve seen the futuree of LSD andd dopee . LSD is the futureee . thee lightt is yelloww and orangee . theere are flowerss everywheree . orangee andd yelloww flowerss and grasss growingg all aroundd . the aiir is clearerr anddd peoplee are jumpingg up andd downn in the grass . theyree all wearingg brightt colorss andd loose jeanss and no brandd namess visiblee . justt peoplee removedd fromm a falsee imagee . whenn it getss darkk the airr is still cool and comfortablee . summer timee . whitee lightss hangingg fromm a stringg . peoplee lyingg on the groundd and gigglingg . justt likee i imagineed as a childd . i saww the futuree . the futuree is LSD . LSD bringss us to the good futuree . 

nigredo

the ego ... lifftingg ..... reveallingg the psychedeelicc truthh . thee satannick electriccityy i cann feell .  symbolsss of memoryy flasshingg beforee me . repeattedd fromm my lifee and surroundingsss . whyy doess everythhingg makee sensee to mee if NONE of itt doess ??? 

im beingg revealled . thiss is whatt i wantedd . satann lead the wayy .  evenn withh my shortcomingss ... he chosee me for his reasonns . 

dirtt floorss

lett the floor boardss risee and the earthh be revealledd beneathh . dig me backk to satanns honourr . i amm satanns slavee . the devill .... my onlyy master . torchh me withh my hardshipss . remindd me . i rememberr everythinggg . becausee i recall nothinggg . 

StBe admirationnn and respectt both wayss . thee meetingg of twoo partss . twoo halvess of onee wholee . onee sidee formless and lostt to the abyss buttt thee relayerr of the greatt wonderss of suchh . onee sidee rigidd in rituall formalityy but a greatt studentt and teachherrr of magickk and lifee . complimenttingg eachotherr but pullingg in oppositee directionss . 

beforee the advancess it usedd to trickk the systemss . we will adaptt . satann sentencedd us to thiss lifee of bondagee andd we will learnn everyy inchh of ourr cagee . we will becomee betterrr .   

so muchh painnn

thoughtt whenn i wasss rippedd to shredss theree was no moree to shedd for medicall valuee . buttt i am inn so muchh painn . physicall painn . whatt i understanndd and havee learnnedd to loveee . satann usess painn to movee me in thee rightt directionn . satann usess painn to changee my wayyss FASTT . i amm a dogg on a shockk collarr . i am satannss slavee . 

honey pot

thee pathh splitss three wayss . i alwayss chosee leftt . some point stopped noticiing thee decisionns . wass beingg pushedd alongg by windd . but throughh the treess sometimess i see the trippyy pathh i usedd to be staggeringg throughh and wonderr how i got off it . itss not as simplle as doingg drugss . ivee triedd every onee i likee . 

i packk and destroyy thee old piecess of my worldd. banishh themm fromm my lifee . i see so manny oldd symbolss thatt havee lostt relevancee . memoriess thatt havee vanishedd to acidd and timee . nothingg leftt . i amm channgingg . i amm beingg wreckedd thenn growingg neww piecess . 

satann hass givenn me anotherr miseryy to livee . onee afterr anotherr . withh the painn of my bodyy and the sickness . i amm contaminatedd by the electricityy thatt onlyy mercuryy can curee . bothh worldss are pullingg me and i am soonn to splitt apartt .  

jotz

ive channged . i needd the neww wayy but drawnn to the oldd wayy . i wannt to fall downn the rabbit holee and neverr comee outt . thiss is a veryy importannt yearr of my lifee . 

higherr truthss

filledd withh the spiritt of alutrii i am capablee . i amm doingg thiss . halloween will be a goodd holidayy this yearr . i will havee accomplisheed . i will be proudd . 

i willl neverr livee a halloween so loww and depressedd againn . this yearr i will look in the e mirrorr and see someethingg im proud of . i amm satanss slave . the devill is my onlyy masterr . thiss life is forr him . thankk you alutri for conneccting me to the higherr truthhs . i will alignn my bodyy to my satanicc formm . thiss painn hasa purposee . i amm breatthing throughh it .  

the dayy of my birrth is approachingg . i must be readyy . i havee a lot of workk to do . i havee a plann and a spirituall partnerr . thee worldd is staccking it upp . i will beginn the dayy withh a rituall and endd the dayy withh a rituall . hopefully moree spirituall workk in betweeen .  

i seee so manny colorss noww .  

virgoego

body brokenn achingg ... mindd on firee withh evill ideass . the sparkks took flamee . all thiss magickk and accidd to accomplishh onee thingg . my lifee to kill my egoo . 

i will fadee to zeroo . no onee will get inn my wayy thiss timee . my bodyy requirees it . it hurts to breathee in this formm . imm dyingg on the ssidewalkk .