the ego ... lifftingg ..... reveallingg the psychedeelicc truthh . thee satannick electriccityy i cann feell . symbolsss of memoryy flasshingg beforee me . repeattedd fromm my lifee and surroundingsss . whyy doess everythhingg makee sensee to mee if NONE of itt doess ???
im beingg revealled . thiss is whatt i wantedd . satann lead the wayy . evenn withh my shortcomingss ... he chosee me for his reasonns .
lett the floor boardss risee and the earthh be revealledd beneathh . dig me backk to satanns honourr . i amm satanns slavee . the devill .... my onlyy master . torchh me withh my hardshipss . remindd me . i rememberr everythinggg . becausee i recall nothinggg .
StBe admirationnn and respectt both wayss . thee meetingg of twoo partss . twoo halvess of onee wholee . onee sidee formless and lostt to the abyss buttt thee relayerr of the greatt wonderss of suchh . onee sidee rigidd in rituall formalityy but a greatt studentt and teachherrr of magickk and lifee . complimenttingg eachotherr but pullingg in oppositee directionss .
beforee the advancess it usedd to trickk the systemss . we will adaptt . satann sentencedd us to thiss lifee of bondagee andd we will learnn everyy inchh of ourr cagee . we will becomee betterrr .
thoughtt whenn i wasss rippedd to shredss theree was no moree to shedd for medicall valuee . buttt i am inn so muchh painn . physicall painn . whatt i understanndd and havee learnnedd to loveee . satann usess painn to movee me in thee rightt directionn . satann usess painn to changee my wayyss FASTT . i amm a dogg on a shockk collarr . i am satannss slavee .
thee pathh splitss three wayss . i alwayss chosee leftt . some point stopped noticiing thee decisionns . wass beingg pushedd alongg by windd . but throughh the treess sometimess i see the trippyy pathh i usedd to be staggeringg throughh and wonderr how i got off it . itss not as simplle as doingg drugss . ivee triedd every onee i likee .
i packk and destroyy thee old piecess of my worldd. banishh themm fromm my lifee . i see so manny oldd symbolss thatt havee lostt relevancee . memoriess thatt havee vanishedd to acidd and timee . nothingg leftt . i amm channgingg . i amm beingg wreckedd thenn growingg neww piecess .
satann hass givenn me anotherr miseryy to livee . onee afterr anotherr . withh the painn of my bodyy and the sickness . i amm contaminatedd by the electricityy thatt onlyy mercuryy can curee . bothh worldss are pullingg me and i am soonn to splitt apartt .
filledd withh the spiritt of alutrii i am capablee . i amm doingg thiss . halloween will be a goodd holidayy this yearr . i will havee accomplisheed . i will be proudd .
i willl neverr livee a halloween so loww and depressedd againn . this yearr i will look in the e mirrorr and see someethingg im proud of . i amm satanss slave . the devill is my onlyy masterr . thiss life is forr him . thankk you alutri for conneccting me to the higherr truthhs . i will alignn my bodyy to my satanicc formm . thiss painn hasa purposee . i amm breatthing throughh it .
the dayy of my birrth is approachingg . i must be readyy . i havee a lot of workk to do . i havee a plann and a spirituall partnerr . thee worldd is staccking it upp . i will beginn the dayy withh a rituall and endd the dayy withh a rituall . hopefully moree spirituall workk in betweeen .
i seee so manny colorss noww .
body brokenn achingg ... mindd on firee withh evill ideass . the sparkks took flamee . all thiss magickk and accidd to accomplishh onee thingg . my lifee to kill my egoo .
i will fadee to zeroo . no onee will get inn my wayy thiss timee . my bodyy requirees it . it hurts to breathee in this formm . imm dyingg on the ssidewalkk .
hopingg at the momentt of my deathh i havee time andd consciousness to focuss on the properr occult symbols to ensuree my nextt lifee is a magickall onee . hopeffully i cann startt where i leavve off . thatss whatt i did in this lifetime . satan boundd me to thiss eartth to fulfill my magickall journeyy across many lifetimess . bondedd to satann . forcedd to survivee .
